"friends" pt 1

So, a friend of mine wanted me to go out with her to this club. I didn't go. I just don't trust her and i hate being invited to places just cause. I feel if you really don't want me to go then don't ask me because i just might suprise you and say "sure, why not."
Well a few weeks back she asked me to go to this club and i said sure, why not. she had been trying to get me to go out with her and a few more friends of hers. I asked another of our friends if she wanted to go as well. She said yes but as the week progressed i knew she would flake out on us and sure as water is moist she did. Who cared i still wanted to go out. Well the problem is i don't have a car so the friend that invited me said we could meet up somewhere and she would take me to the club.
Finally friday came and she called me to confirm the meeting spot and to make sure i still wanted to go. As the night went on she started making excuses. She called me and said that the pkricde of admittance had went up by ten dollars because she had lost the discount flyers so that meant i had to pay $20 to get in. I was like okay whatever, it was 10pm and i was dressed. Then she called me again and said that she had made a mistake with the price which was that after a certain time the price would be $30. Still i said okay, whatever. It just means i'll only have one drink instead of two. Im not a heavy drinker, well not since i turned 21 a few years back and this would have been my second time drinking this year, the other time being New Year Eve and such. She told me i should leave out and that we could meet up, well i'm standing at the meeting place for the better part of 15 minutes when she called me and asked if i had left out yet. That little question pissed me off because she told me it only takes her five minutes to reach the meeting spot. I held back the little remark i was gonna make and just said yeah hurry up cause its getting cold and i don't have a jacket. The weather in Chicago is very tricky.So when she called me five minutes later and told me that she called the club and asked how much it would cost to get in they told her $40. She asked me if i just wanted her to back around. I wanted to tell her to turn around and drive straight into an oncoming semi but i refrained, something i don't usually do. I told her forget it and i would just go back home.
I know she kept making up expense excuses because i always say i'm broke, but thats usually an exaggeration. I actually had the money. I think she didn't want to pick me up because she believed she would have had to take me back home. She would have know that i had cab fare to get myself home if she whould hav picked me up. I never go anywhere without a definate way of getting back not too mention the way she said she got drunk last time i would not have wanted to get in a car with her as the driver.
Well because of that i don't trust her, hell, im not sure if i even like her. The trust is gone. I have major trust issues and when thats gone it's all down hill on an ice covered road.

If you know me then you know i don't really go out. Sure i leave the house but i don't really go out. The main reason is because i don't like to go out by myself. I mean why should i if i have "friends." Yeah, I know i put friends in quotation marks. I did it because you can't see me throw up the finger quotes in my head as i type this. I also did this because technically i don't have any friends. I use the term because its easier than saying "these are the pleople i talk to while im at work" or "this is someone i met at school and decided to keep in contact with" Sure these people may consider me their friend but i honestly don't know why. For instance the two girls i mentioned earlier, well "these are the people i talk to while i'm at work" Sure i talk to one more than the other, that being the one i invited, but thats about it. We never do anything together, now she's Knocked up so there goes that. At least i'll get to go to the wedding.
Another of my friend is getting married and only asked me to be the usher. Damn we were best friends growing up and i'm not even allowed to throw him a bachelor party. This was something i wanted to do because another one of my best friends, yeah you have a lot of those growing up, moved to Colorodo and got married. Of course this took place during the time we lost contact with each other for eight years, but still, i was promised that bachelor party. Oh well...
I'm actually tired of typing and its out of my system for now...

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bored with my friends

Im really bored with my real life "friends." I rarely talk to them. I have work friends who i don't talk too outside of work. I have a friend that lives outside of my state. I have a friend I went to school with and a friend i grew up with. Again i rarely talk to any of them. So i ask myself why do i still call them friend.

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